Wanling

November 2008.

I felt that last of November 2008 full of important moments. Got cough several times, being spitted and chased by a crazy mad beggar, embittered about English test result, proud of being winner of poster and quiz contest in ETC, recording few songs from Marco Borsato in Erasmus Huis, went to “Twilight” Midnite and still worried about pursuing one of my dreams. I repeatedly told my self that “do not loose  this dream, hold it tight, keep fighting and focus”.

I think I played all my cards and bet too high. Now I just only have 4 moths left, and I still don’t have any certainty about next plan. The next 2 month is important from now on. It will decide, next year or the next next year? Arghh..

When I wrote down all the ways out. I found nothing, and I stay still. This is not the end.. and I start thinking that God will not let everything going so easy for me. I am just ordinary people. One of millions human that prays, dreams, praises for comforting the feeling and curse out bad thing that happen everyday.

Hope that December 2008 will be a sweet ending for whole year.

Note : I will not write in Nederlands at this blog because of few consideration ( Ik zal deze blog in Nederlands niet schrijven omdat soms afweging dat ik moet Engels practise)

Luv,

Wanling

Yupe… alles die te maken hebben met twilight boeken..
goede niews is, de film van het eerste boek vroeger 3 weeken in bioscoop..
ik ben blij.. heel blij… ik houd van Edward… Nu, ik ben aan het boek te lezen(meer).. ik heb meer dan 5 keer die boeken gelezen..
oh God… who kom dat…. ik ben gevallen.. aiiih….

Yes…
It’s all about twilight… love story between Bella n Edward..
and the good news… the movie will release 3 weeks earlier… now on 21 November 2008… ah… I really can’t wait.. I have read more than 5 times the book… guess what.. even in office I still googling for R-Pattz picture… ome…
He is so gorgeous…. cant get him out of my head… *sigh*
well.. I have read so many books… but i think this book is the best..
Can’t compare with Harry Potter or LOTR… this is something different…because it talks about love romance which… really touch every woman side.. hahaha..
and sure… it has happy ending.. every body love happy ending..
But about R-Pattz who played as Edward in the movie… yeah… he is so right for picturing Edward… haiih… he is so dazzle…. with his crooked smile… ough… Okay… I admit… I am his fans.. and I love Edward..

Sorry my friends… who talk to me about not to fall deep in to this story… but i can’t help it…  aww… I guess I have talk to mas… He is the one who always talk with sanity and pull me back to reality…..
Mas… waar ben je??? I need you schatje…

Edward Side
Hate Me
Lyric Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

[Children voices:]
If you’re sleeping, are you dreaming,
if you’re dreaming are you dreaming of me.
I can’t believe you actually picked me

My never
Lyric Blue October

Will you think of me in time
It’s never my luck
So nevermind
I wanna say your name
But the pain starts again
It’s never my luck
So nevermind

I had a dream that you were with me
It wasn’t my fault
You rolled me over, flipped me over the somersault
and that doesn’t happen to me.
I’ve never been here before
I saw forever in my never
and I stood outside her heaven

Will you wait for me in time
It’s never my luck
So I’ll say nevermind
and I’ve lost a lot of what I don’t expect to ever return
I tend to push them til the pushing gone from hurtin to burn
I always take them to that place I thought they wanted to go
then end up dancing round
this clown commands applause at his show

I had a dream that you were with me
and it wasn’t my fault
You rolled me over, flipped me over like a somersault
and that doesn’t happen to me
I’ve never been here before
I saw forever in my never
and I stood outside her heaven
Her heaven
Inside her heaven
her heaven

And I can only dream of you in sleep
and I never see sunlight again
I can try to be with you but somehow I’ll end up just losing a friend.
And I can only reach for you
relate to you
I’m losing my friend
Where did she go
Where

I had a dream that you were with me
It wasn’t my fault.
You rolled me over, flipped me over a somersault
And that doesn’t happen to me
I’ve never been here before
but I saw forever in my never
and I stood outside her heaven
stood outside her heaven
stood outside her heaven
Which led me into your heaven

Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down lyrics

Somewhere, far away from here

I saw stars, stars that I could reach (yeah)

It was a midnight, a silent twilight

We Fell down, beyond the ocean beach (yeah)

I assemble all the sand that cover wedding beaches

To build a castle so your mom would have a place to stay

Behind the water slide and down the hill where heaven reaches

Land and time is left to float away (yeah)

So rest assured I have the key to every opening

To every wishing well deep thats enough to dream (dream)

I want to show you just how fascinating kissing is

When earth collides with all the space between (yeah)

I’m reaching farther than I ever have before

Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore

I may be some sort of crazy

We may be some sort of crazy

But I swear on everything I have and more

So never look behind you, spooky people bring you down

The world is ending there’s a party by the bay

I’ll wear my suit and tie, would I and I and toss into

The way you put that smile upon my face (yeah)

Fill up the air balloon and ride with me

Yeah hell is jealous of the rain (rain)

Make love like tiny spaces ending

While befriending fade alluring way of putting this to shame

I’m reaching farther than I ever have before

Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore

I may be some sort of crazy

We may be some sort of crazy

But I swear on everything I have and more

You make the sound of pulling heaven down

You brought the rain’s romantic pour

You make the sound

You make the sound

Of pulling heaven down

I’m reaching farther than I ever have before

(god I’ve reached the top)

Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore

I may be some sort of crazy

We may be some sort of crazy

But I swear on everything I have and more

(go go go go)

I’m reaching farther than I ever have before

(god i’ve reached the top)

Leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore

I may be some sort of crazy

We may be some sort of crazy

But I swear on everything I have and more

(go go go go)

Gisteren s’avond, ging ik naar Erasmus Huis om zijn (Vitaly) concert te keken.
Wie is Vitaly? Hij werd op 12 April 2008 uitgeroepen tot Eerste Prijswinnaar van het 8ste Internationaal Franz Liszt Pianoconcours in Utrect (Netherland).
Hahaha… misschien niet heel beroemd voor jullie… maar… die concert was heel leuk. Veel mensen gingen, de stoelen niet genoeg, en paar van de mensen moesten staan bij de muuren op.

Zijn photo..
Mooi? hmmm…. denk ik twee keer

Kijk naar de zon
licht, warm
hoewel hij ondergaat,
maar de maand neemt z’n plaats
Kijk naar uw ricthting
hoewel het moelijk is,
maar komt altijd een morgen
Dus, kijk naar de zon

pernah nda merasa kayaknya begitu banyak yang harus di lakukan tapi tidak tau harus darimana? *akhirnya cuma bengong*

pernah nda merasa hari ini nda mood deh ngapa2in? *akhirnya muncul istilah bad hair day*

pernah nda merasa tidak mau melakukan pekerjaan yang harus dilakukan? *jadilah inem dan bos*

pernah nda merasa malu dan rendah diri karena kita tahu seharusnya kita bisa tapi kenyataan berbicara bahwa kita tidak bisa? *membatasi diri krn kesempatan yang sudah lewat*

pernah nda merasa, bangun pagi dan merasa kejadian kemaren tuh mudah2an cuma mimpi? *kemudian kenyataan berbicara dan kita shock lagi, nov itu bukan mimpi…*

pernah nda waktu berjalan (i mean benar2 berjalan kaki) kemudian menghitung 1-10 untuk mengisi kekosongan pikiran? *rasanya koq jadi ocd (obsesif compulsif disorder-> bener nda mas??)*

pernah nda merasa, capek nih ke toilet mlulu untuk buang air kecil? *coba ada selang ya? jadi kek kateter??*

pernah nda terpikir kalo menang lottery n jadi orang kayaaaaaaaa banget, bmana bagi2 duitnya ya?? *wuiiih.. kapan terealisasi?? rh, wake up!!!*

pernah nda terpikir, kalo mati trus apa yang bakal di hadapi? dunia macam apa? *lebih baik hidup dengan baik dan menganggap Tuhan itu ada dan ketika mati menemukan bahwa Tuhan itu tidak ada DARIPADA hidup dan menganggap Tuhan itu tidak ada kemudian setelah mati dan menemukan ternyata Dia ada*

**sudah…!!! terlalu banyak pertanyaan yang sendiri tak bisa di jawab… Maaf sudah menyusahkan pembaca,.. jangan terpengaruh….**

i was stuck in my friend’s house.. with water’s lever reach on grown people’s knee..
what a….. really confusing day… without gasoline, electrical energy, food (just only rice and eggs.. *duhh.. nelangsa juga*)

so… 3 of us.. with aconk and my bro… we walked through the water from permata buana to purimedia..

what a really nice experience… with kuman (kuman = germs)!!!

but there’s always the first time moment for us..and.. this is the first time i see flood..

umm… walked about 3km… for almost 2 hours..

after reach purimedia, my sis came and brought food… really starv to death at the moment.. (hiperbola)

hahahaha.. no comments deh for jakarta..

at the rush time… hero market.. full of people queue in line to kassa with all the instant food, breads, and fruits…
really like there was no tomorrow for bought all that stuffs..
just only candy and sweets left.. ahahahahahahaha

jakarta… i’ll miss u alot..

"bagaimana bisa bahagia kalo sakit?" salah seorang yang sy kenal di bali bertanya demikian.

Dan terus terang, sy juga bingung.. krn itu jawaban relatif..

rasakan dulu sakit/derita itu baru kau bisa tau rasanya bagaimana bahagia meskipun dalam sakit/derita.

tidak ada yang namanya senang dan tidak ada yang namanya susah.. dalam senang.. yang terpikir.. kapan momen ini akan berulang?

dalam susah.. yang terpikir.. kapan saya bisa keluar dari derita ini? relatif.. sangat relatif.. tapi nikmati saja…

krn Tuhan tidak akan pernah mencobai kita di luar kemampuan kita..

percayalah dan jalani saja..

Peace!!!

kutukan yang manieeezzz

banyak barang2 yang perlu di kurbankan…

and i’ve lost one of my bling-bling thing… iks…

my friend canceled my flight..

and i move to another flight not the same day and not the same plane..

ouugh… just because adam air accident!!!

there’re many things i’ve got because i pending my flight..

hmm…. i met more new friends..

i ate more expensive foods *crazy bali!!!!!*

i went to waterbom… and i got a darker tone on my skin…

and the most important thing!!! i am bankrupt!!!!

iks… help help… helep…..

so… by this blog… i announce my bankrupt!!

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bekerja dan bekerja..
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demi sesuap nasi
dan segenggam berlian..
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